thinking of you. / Jessica Suitsev thinking of you and family for the new coming year. love you all.
thinking of you on your birthday / Shirley Baer (none) Lori, know tht you are in my thoughts as your birthday approaches. I know they are not happy for us when we have lost our child...I pray that you have a comforting peaceful day...luv
thinking of you at christms / Shirley Baer (none) Lori, I am so sorry i was unable to sign Steven's gb before christmas...Know that i think of all of our angels and the ones they left behind grieving for them every day of my life...luv ya
The Christmas Miracle By Monika / Lori Miller (Mom) Christmas 2006 The Christmas Miracle
All the angel moms have gathered at the home of Doc and Monika to celebrate Christmas together. They have all gathered round the fireplace with steaming cups of tea using peppermint candy canes to stir the tea giving it just a hint of sweet peppermint taste for the holidays.
We talk of the happier days when our children were here to celebrate this scared and glorious season. Passing the tissue box as the tears fall we hold each other close sharing the precious memories we keep tucked safely in our hearts. Every once in awhile the laughter spills forth as we share fun memories of our children. We talk long into the night past the wee hours of the morning. As day brings to break one by one we fall into an exhausted sleep entwined in each arms, heads on each others shoulders.
Soon we begin to drift and vaguely become aware of a feeling of floating higher and higher, we open sleepy eyes to see we are floating upwards on a cloud being lead by beautiful Angels... such sights we have only imagined.....
Thru the fog we begin see the twinkling ahead of beautiful colors of reds and greens blues and yellows reminding us of the strings of lights we strung around the house and up drive and over the fences and of course around the tree by the fireplace earlier in the day. But these colors are much brighter then anything we have ever seen before. We are in awe of the sights before us. Suddenly we hear chattering and shouts and laughter and wonder where we are and what is before us.. We rub our eyes not believing what we see...
A room much like the room we fell asleep in but before us we see our beloved children and all our loved ones. Grant, Brent, Jeremy and Steven in the corner playing cards together Scott, Derek, Joshua J, Wayne, Brian and Michael are deep in discussion every once in awhile the boys burst forth with hearty laughter no doubt there sharing childhood antics. While in front of the fire in a comfortable rocker sits Elizabeth rocking both Babies Parker, while Jason, Katherine, Lauren, Dylan and Hunter are playing with blocks. Danielle ,Dawn are coloring together. Ryan, Travis, Jack and Zach are playing with transformers.
In the corner stands a huge Christmas tree and underneath we see Joey, Jakob and J.W. playing with a choo train that is winding round and round the tree as it climbs the branches, there having so much fun trying to see which branch it is on now. There are tiny bright lights flitting here and there , when we realize those are Carly’s angels
Joshua H walks to the mantle and picks up a big beautiful gold embossed book and opens it as he says Gather round and I will tell you the story of our Saviors birth. A hush falls over the room as Joshua begins...
Now it came about in those days that a decree went out from Caesar Augustus, that a census be taken of all the inhabited earth. And all were proceeding to register for the census, everyone in his own city. And Joseph also went up from Galilee, from the city of Nazareth, to Judea, to the city of David, in order to register, along with Mary, who was engaged to him, and was with child. And it came about that while they were there, the days were completed for her to give birth. And she gave birth to her first-born son; and she wrapped Him in cloths, and laid Him in a manger, because there was no room for them in the inn. And in the same region there were some shepherds staying out in the fields, and keeping watch over their flock by night. And an angel of the Lord suddenly stood before them, and the glory of the Lord shone around them; and they were terribly frightened. And the angel said to them, "Do not be afraid; for behold, I bring you good news of a great joy which shall be for all the people; for today in the city of David there has been born for you a Savior, who is Christ the Lord. And this will be a sign for you: you will find a baby wrapped in cloths, and lying in a manger." And suddenly there appeared with the angel a multitude of the heavenly host praising God, and saying, Glory to God in the highest,And on earth peace among men.
As Joshua finishes the story the children rise we watch in awe as we see them transform before our eyes they are now dressed in beautiful long flowing white gowns there wings as white as new fallen snow the edges bright with Gold and halos so bright it hurt our eyes as they solemnly walk to the gates where can see the throne of God. Each one turns to us and waves as they call out Merry Christmas Mom and Dad we miss too.
The sunlight streams in the window as we wake from this dream with out speaking a word we embrace each other neither having to say a word for we all know we have just spent Christmas in heaven with our children.
May you all be comforted with sweet memories during this scared season of Our Savior's birth.
Love Monika
Loss of a child / Brenda Dailey (KNow the Mother )
I know that you are safe son and your mother now stands alone. She never has a day without you on her mind. The tear's she cries are made of sorrow hurt and pain as God was supose to take us and leave our children with us// Love you dear and if you have time please tell my boy hi. Love you and your family. Brenda and Derek
love you.. / Charmaine Bessette (girlfriend..Love of my life. ) steven.I havent been on here for a while..Its so hard seeing this site pop up and saying in memory..I still cant believe what happened..I want you to know no matter what you are going to always be in my heart...I still wear the ring you got me everyday...I promise you i am never going to take it off..I rememeber the day you gave it to me..We were shell in lincoln city and you had it waiting there in the backseat for me in your celica..And i remember lindsy saying that i should feel lucky to get something from you,Because you hardly ever give gurls anything haha...your to cute!..And i feel soo lucky to have spent 3 years with you..I had to be one of the most blessed and happiest girls ever.Noone can ever replace you steven you knowthat..I found the video of you and me you were so funny on it..You remember when i was driving your car and i stalled it up at the top of my road!..We were both screaming and you were so mad but you didnt want to say it!..haha...Then your like Baby! Its ok i can just go buy another one tomorrow if you ruin it..you always were so positive about everything even when noone else was..The day that i watched that video you gave me your cartoush when we were in my car..You told me if anything ever happened to you i have your soul and you would always be with me..so if i ever got in a car accident or anything you would always be with me!.You were like ya thats why your never going to get in a car accident....I am so happy i found that video..It means the world to me to have..=)..I love you so much steven we all do!..love you forever and always...*charmaine*.....
Memories Poem by Dj / Lori Miller (Mom) Memories
Memories are all we have, our memories in our minds and hearts and photos of our wonderful son.
Photos of him laughing, playing when he was a baby, then child,a man for a short while, we cherish every one.
Someday we will join him, in heaven, where he awaits, in that home up above,
Until that time, we have our memories and pictures,and hearts full of love.
We will always love and remember you, our son, our hearts are so broken,
As we recall everything we did, every word ever spoken.
We will join you in that gloryland where you now reside,
One day we will be together again, side by side.
We love you, Steven. Mom By DJ French, Shane's Mom
First christmas / Lori Miller (Mom)
This is my son Steven's first Christmas in heaven. I never dreamed anything could hurt this much, the pain cannot be described, no words can express the emotions that are running rampant through my mind. Everywhere I go I find myself looking for him, searching the crowds. I know that he is gone from this world and is in heaven waiting for us to join him. I cant look at greeting cards because every one reminds me of him. I am so afraid that others will forget him. I think that's a Mother;s biggest fear, that their child will be forgotten. We make and decorate their websites so others can read about them and grow to love them also. So many young people gone too soon, infants, toddlers, teens and young adults. I know that one day we will be called home also and will be reunited with Steven and our other loved ones who have gone on ahead to Glory. I will be sharing the gifts that my online grief support groups made for Steven. I want to thank each one of them for being here for me whenever I need to vent, rage, cry or just need an ear to listen. God Bless, Lori, Steven's mom
Christmas 2006 / Lori Miller (Mom) Dear Steven,
Today is Christmas Day, the first one without you. I never dreamed it would be so terribly hard to deal with. Dad and I try to put on a good front for your brother, but we know that he is hurting just like we are. He misses you so much. Your dad and I miss you so much. We just want you back. When you left us you left a hole in our hearts that can never be fixed.
Remembering back on Christmas days, you used to have so much fun opening presents.
I Love you Honey and Miss you very much!
Love Mom
Thinking Of You / Judi Fisher Lori, thinking of you and Ed this holiday season and wishing you peace and comfort during this difficult time. You will be in my heart and in my prayers. Love and Hugs, Judi, Andrew's Mom
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